Violence and guns. An aversion I will always have. When I unexpectedly saw a gun sitting in its case at a friend’s house, I noticed how strong my reaction was. I had never seen a gun in person before. My friend explained that he has the licensed gun for hunting, and belongs to a gun shooting range.
It got me thinking … maybe I should face this aversion and it would help conquer my fear of guns if I experienced shooting one. Well, low and behold, one of those irresistible coupons arrived in my inbox to go to DVC Indoor shooting range.
As I walked into the reception area, I heard the gun shots, and anxiety set in. Bang, bang, bang, and BOOM!
The briefing did a very good job showing us the safety rules and how to load the gun and shoot. The staff were very professional, friendly and extremely safety conscious.
My heart was pounding as I picked up the 9mm handgun for the first time. I felt like I had forgotten everything they taught me. I was able to calm myself somewhat with steady, mindful breathing. I guess I did OK, and you can see the result in the photo of the target. I shot 50 rounds, which is 50 bullets.
The only incident was pretty funny but could have been a terrible disaster had it not been for the keen staff member who carefully watched over me. One of the bullet shells had flipped up into the air, and traveled right down my top! Those shells are super hot, and I jumped and shrieked! In one quick motion, the staff member had grabbed my gun and pulled out the magazine to disengage it, while I finished my little freakout dance to get the bullet out of my top. Good thing, as I would have flailed that gun around without thinking!
So, the end result is I feel better having some familiarity with guns. I’m not quite as fearful but I certainly still have an aversion to them.
I definitely was practicing mindfulness through most of this experience. Noticing my reactions, concentrating on the present moment, and breathing slowly to calm myself down.
However, I’m glad that it’s over!
Wishing you a wonderful day,